First Ultrasound

So we had our first ultrasound yesterday and we are still pregnant!!! And we are having... One sweet little baby!

We got to see the heartbeat! It was such a surreal special moment. I was so happy I did not even ask our due date but I was 6 weeks 3 days yesterday so I believe that makes us due on November 30!

A friend nicknamed the baby Leonitis (I have no idea!) and I think the name is going to stick for now at least. So without further ado here is Baby Leo:

Scared shitless.

Almost a week ago I started spotting. Nothing major, just a little that I thought it was implementation bleeding. The next day it changed to a bright red color which scared me. I called my doctor and they said do not worry it is probable normal and if I am miscarrying there is nothing to do about it. Plus, do not lift anything over 10lbs. Ok, I told myself all is good and to stop worrying... Well that only lasts as long as I do not go to the bathroom where I am reminded that I am still spotting.

I am scared shitless. I know it is normal but what is considered normal? What is considered normal for me may not be normal for the next lady. I keep telling myself to be patience, relax, and it is all working out but it is not working.

I am still spotting some days better than others but still spotting. I am trying to stay calm but I am screaming/crying inside. I keep telling my little embabies to hold on tight. But really, I am just scared shitless.

I also want to add I really do not have any symptoms. At least any that I might have could be from my amazing imagination!

A little March Madness

I am absolutely sure it is bad luck to post this picture. But it is March Madness and Kentucky is in the final four and well I am super excited about this pregnancy so here goes nothing:

It is the very first present and the very first thing bought for our baby! I swear I haven't even purchased a pair of socks or bib!

Drumroll please....

I AM PREGNANT!

Thank you ladies for your support during this IVF process. Ladies still going through the process you must always have hope and faith. You all are stronger than what you realize.

Turkeys

Today, we will hopefully find out if we are pregnant or not.  I am hoping the beta number has gone up significantly.  Last time I had Ben call and get the results and I found out when I got home from work.  Today, I am still having Ben call but I do not know if I can wait until I leave work.  Ben is working tonight so no matter what I am going to hear about it over the telephone.   I think I will end up calling him once he knows the results.  I checked in a noon to see if he knew the results… here is our message:

Me: So do you know? I don’t know if I can wait all day.

Ben: They are out until 12:30; however, you are going to be the proud momma of 16 baby turkeys Tuesday or Wednesday.

Yes folks, my husband said turkeys.  Why we need 16 baby turkeys is beyond me but raising birds is a hobby that turned into a business for my husband.   He raises quail and sells them.  At any given time we have more than 1,000 quail eggs in an incubator.  He seems to enjoy it.   Did I mention I am scared of birds?!?!?!

What we do for love! J 

Need a little motivation!

I have absolutely no motivation to study for this next exam! After spending the last year devoted to studying for my CPA, I am just over it.

I keep telling myself "Kelly, this is your last exam! Get through this next month of studying and you will be done." I get a little pumped after that and open the book and start reviewing contracts and then I lose all interest!

Ok, done whining... must get back to studying now.

Slightly?!?!

I am slightly pregnant. My beta said I am pregnant but it was low. I am going back on Monday morning to retest.

I am happy, I think. A positive is a positive. I am very hopeful but still have not let my guard down.