Even though Ben has labeled me a pessimist, I try my damnedest not to be so pessimistic. I like to think of myself as a realist; but, I am sure there is some truth to what Ben is thinking. I do my best to see the silver lining in bad situations. Mostly, so I don’t focus on all the negativity and find myself spiraling out of control with either anxiety or depression.
I have to admit that infertility hit me hard, just like everyone else going through it. I had good days and bad days. However, I tried to see an upside… for example, oh, I got my period this month… well then I get to drink on vacation/at the wedding/in general. Yes, most of my silver linings were related to drinking. Yes, I realize that is a cooping mechanism. Stop judging me! J
Anyways, I have realized another upside to infertility this week. I have saved up enough sick leave these last years to cover the full 12 weeks of FMLA!!!! That’s right ladies and gentlemen, I said sick leave! That doesn’t include my vacation leave at all! Based on my projection, I will actually have about a week of sick leave and almost 4 weeks of vacation leave when I come back to work! I can’t believe it!
Please note that some of the reason I will have so much leave upon returning to work is that I work for a university and I will have 13 paid holidays during my maternity leave. My university shuts down completely for about 2 weeks at Christmas and the President has provided us with paid holiday during that time in lieu of raises. (Yes, always disappointed in July when I don’t receive a raise but always happy when he announces the paid 2 weeks at Christmas and 1 week for Spring Break !)
Anyways, I am overjoyed today and now am thinking I should ask off on Friday since my Mama is in town for the weekend!!