Monday, May 12, 2014


Today, we met with our regular obgyn.  We did another ultrasound to confirm if we were have twins.  

Baby A is measuring 10 weeks 6 days and the heartbeat was 173. 

Baby B is no longer with us.  Baby B had no heart and is smaller than before as my body has started to absorb the baby.  

I am....upset, saddened, emotionally drained.  I am spending the day home by myself.  Ben went back to work and Ava is stull at daycare.  I needed this afternoon to grieve.  

I usually try to find the silver linings when bad stuff happens; I have thought of a couple but they just do not seem to matter.  

I should mention we are extremely excited and grateful that baby A is doing so weel and growing strong! 

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Surprise, surprise, surprise

The other day I told you about our first ultrasound.  Let me tell you about ultrasound #2.

Ben was suppose to meet me at the doctors.  He was working.  He was running late after transferring some  outstanding citizens to jail.  He called and said he was going to be at least another 20 minutes and to go ahead with out him.  I asked if he wanted to facetime but he said no judst video the heartbeat.  

The nurse held the phone to get a good video of the ultrasound.  The baby is now measuring 9 weeks and the heart rate was 175. 

Next, Dr. A began searching for the other sac when I saw it.... Another flickering heartbeat.  Yes, the second sac (aka vanishing twin) had developed and  did not vanish at all.  Baby B is measuring 8 weeks 2 days and the heart rate was 156.

Boy oh boy was I surprised!  I called Ben during the ultrasound to tell him we got dupped!  

After I got dressed again Dr. A came back in and we talked about our little surprise.  Per Dr. A, the baby could either have attached late or is having some development issues.   He said he has seen it played out both ways.  He said the odds our in our favor that we will deliver 2 healthy babies but it is still early and baby B may not survive.  

If baby B does not survive, it should not affect baby A.  My body would absorb the fetus.   

If baby A does survive (yay!), the age difference will not matter at full term and everything should be ok.  

So we are now just waiting.  I have been released from Dr. A and my next appointment is with my obgyn on May 12.  We should know more about the babies then.

Ben is pretty excited and I am just shocked and sick.  I need to lay down every night after Ava goes to bed or I start throwing up.  I have zofran which has helped some days and other days not so much.  

Right we are just taking it one day at a time and praying our little surprise is a fighter!