Extremely Early B-day Present

My husband is an avid hunter/fisher.  In fact, sometimes I wonder if the only reason we purchased our house is because it has a pond on it.  I clearly remember when we first went and looked at the house as soon as Hubby saw the pond it didn't matter what shape the house was in.  Luckily for me, the house was in good shape.  I think I earned major brownie points with my mother in law (MIL) with our house and the pond.  Per MIL, Hubby always asked Santa for a pond when he was a little boy.  I love that we are blessed to have a pond for him now.

I like trying new things and enjoying Hubby's activities with him.  I have been know to go hunting with him from time to time.  I have dragged and skinned deer with him.  It is some of my favorite moments.  We occassionally have shooting get-togathers with friends.

How does this related to my birthday present?  Well... Hubby bought me a crossbow.  A what?  Yes, a cross bow. 

(Please don't look at how cluttered my table is!  But do notice the centerpiece that I made from a Pinterest!)

Now, the next step is practice shooting my crossbow.  I really do enjoy it!  I am not sure if I can shoot Bambi's Momma... but Hubby thinks I can.  I guess we will have to wait and see!  Crossbow season starts next month!

Oh, also my brother-in-law got a crossbow this year.... it is a race to see who successful uses it first!  He is going to be so upset!!! haha :)

Thought Vomit Thursday

I am definately stealing the Thought Vomit Thursday from a blog I read on occasion.  I like the idea and today I cannot formulate one good thought to write about.  So here is what is floating around Kellyland today:

• I have dropped 2-3 dress sizes!  I bought a new pair of jeans last weekend and they are 2 sizes smaller than what I was wearing!    I have been doing the MaxMuscle diet and I have lost weight and did not really modify my diet at all. I still eat meat, potatoes, and everything in between.  Having said that I have no motivation to continue to my goal.  My original goal was to lower my body fat % since we will be starting IVF next spring.  I wanted to be healthiest I could be.  Now, I am content.  I still would like to lost 5 lbs more and gain some more muscle... but again need motivation.
• I have an impending CPA exam in less than a month.  I hope I pass this time!  I am studying hard and efficiently so fingers crossed!  Can I tell ya how much I hate Deluted Earnings Per Share and Deferred Taxes!  (Sorry, went geeky on ya!)
• I hate it when people touch me constantly!  I love doing the 'hey, haven't seen ya in a while hug' but after that stop touching me!  My BFF is in this touch, grope phase to me and it is driving me nuts... must find a way to politely, kindly say "Stop explictive touching me!"
• I have to call my mother in law and give her the updated IVF news.  My hubby isn't a talker so I need to let her know whats up.  What's up you ask?  We are starting IVF in January!  I am excited, scared, nervous, and everything in between.  Looking for someone who is starting/going through IVF now that I can follow so I am not caught off guard when we start. 

I think that this is it for me today.  Have a happy!!
Kel

Susan G Komen 5k

This morning I ran the breast cancer 5k with my best friend, Teri! She is a runner, she absolutely loves it. So when I mention running it she was all for it!

This past year my grandma has battled vreast cancer. Thanks to a new mammogram machine tgey detected the lump before she could even feel it. Se has gone thru chemo and has jist finished radiation. She is doing great! I live close to 10 hours away from her now and I'm not very good at calling her like I should so today I ran (ok, I walked some) for her. Its the best I can do right now.

Anyhoo, I felt great afterwards! Teri and I ate a huge brrakfast after the run and just had some girl bonding. We have needed it!

PINK it isn't just a color it is a CAUSE!

Helpful Friends

Because I found this extremely helpful...

http://eggsandsperm.com/2011/09/06/so-whats-a-fertile-to-do/

Anger

I have noticed that the past couple of months I have been fueled with anger and I am currently on a journey to identify the cause and deal with the anger.  I have unfortunately taken it out on people that I love and care and I realize this is a bad thing and I have apologized profusely. 

A little background before I explain the current cause of anger.

My Hubby and I have been trying to conceive (TTC) for 2.5 years.  We have had no luck with 3 IUIs and are now saving money for IVF.  We have a great support network of close friends/family that is aware of our issues.  Our infertility is a combination of his and mine infertility.  When I ovulate his stuff doesn’t like to swim.  When he is swimming my stuff doesn’t work. (I will do a timeline soon!) 

We were watching the news the other day and a 34 yo man was killed.  His sister was on the news saying he was a new grandfather.  Yeah, that’s right a 34 year old grandfather!!! Argh!  Anyways, that rocked me to the core.   

Next, we had friends over for dinner that night a JT said that God does not give anyone something they are not ready for.  I smiled and thanked him.  JT has been great in the past for us. 

Here is the anger part, how can God think that it is ok for a 34 year old to be grandfather but we are not able to be parents.

My husband and I are in a great place with our marriage, careers, and life in general.  All we are missing is a little one that is spitting image of us.   I’m afraid that if we keep going the way we are that we will have 10 dogs with in the next 5 years! We already at 4!  I think I live in a zoo sometimes.

Anyways, I promise future blogs won’t be so depressing. 

Kelly