During our infertility struggles I turned to food for a little bit and gained enough weight that my clothes didn’t fit any more. I started dieting/exercising. At my peak fitness, I was 21% body fat. I loved seeing my muscles. I loved feeling stronger and watching myself get stronger. I lost all that muscle tone I worked so hard to get when the holiday cookies started appearing, the fertility meds, and finally the pregnancy sweet tooth.
Even with losing tone I felt so strong after giving birth. I felt empowered. I felt like I was the strongest women in the world. Yes, I realize women give birth every day all over the world without drugs and with much bigger babies. But to me, delivery was the strongest I have ever felt. I even felt a little sexy.
Even though my body is not how I wish it was, I am still amazed at how strong it was to push a child out, my sweet little child. I still feel empowered.
It really made me feel like a true woman vs. a girl wearing mommy’s clothes. I really believed that something inside of me changed that day. I feel more confident in myself and my abilities. I am not sure if that change came from the strength/empowerment or if the difference was caused by being a mommy.
I do want to start the diet/exercise regiment again to help flatten that belly pudge some. However, right now any free time is sleep time for me. I feel it is more beneficial to maximize sleep. I have started trying to take Ava for walks. I need to start using the bow flex again in the mornings but Ava is so inconsistent on wake up times.
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Even with losing tone I felt so strong after giving birth. I felt empowered. I felt like I was the strongest women in the world. Yes, I realize women give birth every day all over the world without drugs and with much bigger babies. But to me, delivery was the strongest I have ever felt. I even felt a little sexy.
Even though my body is not how I wish it was, I am still amazed at how strong it was to push a child out, my sweet little child. I still feel empowered.
It really made me feel like a true woman vs. a girl wearing mommy’s clothes. I really believed that something inside of me changed that day. I feel more confident in myself and my abilities. I am not sure if that change came from the strength/empowerment or if the difference was caused by being a mommy.
I do want to start the diet/exercise regiment again to help flatten that belly pudge some. However, right now any free time is sleep time for me. I feel it is more beneficial to maximize sleep. I have started trying to take Ava for walks. I need to start using the bow flex again in the mornings but Ava is so inconsistent on wake up times.
This post is a part of PAIL Bloggers monthly theme.
Great attitude!!!! You have plenty of time to take it off. Enjoy that sleep and time with your daughter!!!
ReplyDeleteglad you are in a good place and birth was such a good experience for you. I ended up with c so i had the opposite experience and hope that I can do a vaginal birth this time.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that you felt that way about your birth experience. It is such a powerful experience!
ReplyDelete21%?? That's awesome lady! I'm at like 34% right now and NOT happy about it.