Today, I am an Aunt yet again. We are not up to 4 nephews and 3 nieces.
Ben’s brother’s wife had their son today. I should be overjoyed! However, it just reminded me of hitting rock bottom. See I found out about this pregnancy through Facebook. (See this blog for further details.) This pregnancy shook me to the core. Luckily, we do not live near them so I wasn’t force to put on a happy face. However, I still, even though we are finally pregnant with our own, have resentment towards his wife for her Facebook announcement.
I hope that I will not treat this nephew differently than the rest. I hope that I will love him as much as the others. I hope I will be able to get over this hurt, resentment, etc.
It has not helped that I have been bomb-barded with baby pictures all day today. Can’t wait to go home and go to bed and start tomorrow with a fresh attitude!